Publisher: Infertility Press
ISBN: 978-0-9795613-0-6
Type: Soft Cover
Price: $14.95
Pages: 200

The Subtitle, "Living With the Secret Shame of Infertility" says it all.  Mrs. Lena Marie-Fields Arnold has pulled the covers back and has opened up her aching heart to us. Holding nothing back, she shares with us her secret shame of infertility. It took her ten years of trying to "fix" this problem before she finally accepted this indescribable pain that was cast into her lap. She is real as she bleeds on each page.

"I felt mocked, rejected, dismayed, and in despair. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw a failure. To me I'd failed, as a woman in the most important way of all … I just did not understand what was wrong with me! With these thoughts came fresh tears, and my body wracked in anguish from the hurt." (Pg.57)

The unique thing about this book is it is a repertoire of her journal entries and is written in conversational tone as she shares her thoughts and inner emotions with her ‘child’ who does not exist. She uses this method of journalism as her weapon to conquer the enemy of infertility and the sadness, depression, and despair that comes with it.

I believe the breaking point, the point at which she finally accepts this lot was the powerful and moving speech, which she shares with us, and which she delivered at a woman’s conference wondering how in the world was she going to inspire those women when she, herself, was so depressed.

Find out the final outcome as Mrs. Arnold and her husband put their faith in God as they, after many years, decided to go the route of In-vitro Fertilization. Will it be a success? Or are they doomed never to have children?

Read and Find out!